*ThereNback-Noregrets*

PAthos over !!
Yeah!!

posted by xiaoke @ 12:28 PM 1 Comments

1 week to pros and then elective will start.
My oh my... pathology really makes me pathological...
And i need to plan my electives in a more detailed fashion so that it wil be a fruitful experience... but first i need to get the air tickets lol...

BAck to MENS syndrome for now lol....

posted by xiaoke @ 1:52 PM 0 Comments

Study hard!
Exercise more!
Read more bible!

and i wil be a good boy haa

"Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. "=)
What comforting words=)

posted by xiaoke @ 3:38 AM 0 Comments

King of the OT2 rubbish pile! sunder b and me! Stage and props manager
Ot2 has ended 1 week ago and its just great, admist much confusion and chaos=) more nice photos and friends i have made=) Back to patho mugg=)

Team props !! - girl team lol from L (blanchie, jiahui, kalpana, jan, angela, nadia, laurelle, jinxi)

Dennis- our dancing king and paramedic slacking on ot2 set
Grace- our dear music writer who has a 100%lock in rate in old lib
Moyin - our brave nurse and stil pretty after the fall

Geri our dancer instructor
Amelia- dancing queen
rachel- make up n costume girl
Vicky- pretty nurse
Hanyang- ppppppaaarrkinnsonnnn
Chris- director and "time of death 4.42pm" dr
The dr who finally got his lines
Liyana- pretty jaded dr

MC lam- the adorable cushing who now has a fan club
Leonard- patient and vjc canoeist!
Sheila- student and newly pronounced camera whore number 2!
Chris our forget ful alzehimer
the patients - theresa, joella,
ouyang - the director cum evil prof
Priyanka- our "yes can i help you" bureaucrat
Kalpana!- props, ticket, marketing, treasurer and many more !
joel - our spot light man who had the "what did the chicken buy at the butcher" joke
Gary - pianist who is always surrounded by babes
Ben ! - our dear joe average and da man!
Yiliang - the uber patient
Fara- florence nightingale who can sing!
Amanda - our favorite pretty aunti queen nurse!!

Siying- one of our dance ic and students
Bang our paramedic and researcher,, jade the smart and pretty marie curie
Pearly and nat our hard working nurses
Zhou hao- our "dun make me laugh, later i fall asleep" sounds man
Jun wen - the lights man who lve to irritate me lol
Raj- props man turned "u r so demanding" bureaucrat
Shawn- the cheeky and sometimes gay osler
melvin- my lame cgmate and props man

Wenyang- photographer, props, iceman, publication ic
Zhiyong- the kind prof hippocraties
Muggy- ah ben, student david and uber dancer
Eunice our pretty patient with MS and sing uberly well
Victor the dad and jaded dr, moria the mother and dancer
Ras the bureaucrat 3
Issac the Dr Cofm aka "the king"
Angela!
And of course not forgetting Manchusen, Huizhong, wenbo whom i cant find photo lol

(photos courtesy of wenyang!)

posted by xiaoke @ 5:19 PM 0 Comments

Restarting!!

Rebooting in 5 4 3 2 1....

posted by xiaoke @ 11:57 PM 0 Comments

i used to think that sometimes in my life... there are small spaces and corners that i should leave for my self. i always thought that this is what god wanted.. after all he does wan us to plan our life... this things in life.. sometimes this involves our personal relationships. I thought that that little corner in my heart was mine and mine alone. i thought that it just a little space in which i could dwell in and linger and make myself feel good. Little did i realise how much it has eventually consumed me... it tries to hide itself in many forms, behind many emotions but oneday it could no longer hold its doors... u get overwhelmed by it. And even though u realise that this is in fact not what God has meant for you, u still dont wan to let go... u think mayb its just a little mistake... u begin to try to hide it in your own lies to yourself... u convince yourself mayb its still right...
Sometimes i feel that he has hinted me so many times but i just din see or mayb i just did not want to see it... yet he never did let go... he waited for me to turn to him... he waited for me to understand and tell me in his own unfathomable ways the lesson that he wants me to learn...
he made me realise that there is no other way besides surrendering all to him

Lord, my entire life to you i surrender...
I surrender all, I surrender all...
All to thee my blessed saviour...
So mercifully you have let me,
Seen the foolishness in my own life.
And Spared me the judgement,
That i undeniably deserved,
Just like your salvation,
How true thou art...
With tears in my heart,
before you my spirit lay,
You whispered in your softest comfort..
and touched me with your love
Beyond what words can understand...

posted by xiaoke @ 1:53 AM 0 Comments

Fire works at marina square is so nice... well not so nice but considering the fact that its being so long since i watched fire works.. its great=)

And i got lost in marina square what the heck haa... i din even know where millennium walk is haa
So many people walking around me... i really feel my head popping out above everyone today haa

count down to the end of my short holiday... sounds a little like army... oh no bookin at 1900!! haa
not that bad=) at least its doing somethings that i like...

Stupid talk to attend on Mon.. grrr.. wat they mean when they say 'due to the overwhelming response' they are holding it again... my word!! cant they just leave us alone and stop disturbing us with people with no medical knowledge at all? Before they sent the minister... now they tink he is too good for us and sends the second in the command... sighz... stupid deans office

Food Food!! i need food.. where is my Macs? i m gg to faint.. well back to my naruto and bourne ultimatum for now haa

posted by xiaoke @ 11:52 PM 0 Comments

i am back!!

Ortho test tomorrow!! i think its GG!! AHhhhh!!
Sighz and soon its O and G posting. Even more GG.... O n G is how freaking alot of stuuff to study and so important...

got my new comp... great little dell com.=)
Goiing to slowly upgrade it and make it more zeng... nt too many games i hope... since i only play dota and some shooting game to distress=)
Please please keep yur self safe from virus and what not...

New school term started for everyone... for girls my year its end of the study road trip... soon for me too.. sobz... what to do what to do!! ahhh

its time for me to grow up man! i am always like a little kid... shuacks. wth... i love it haa

but guess its time to be more understanding and learn to read peoples minds..

Give me! GIve me !I want I want!! I want a little stethoscope so i can hear whats in your heart!!

posted by xiaoke @ 12:05 AM 0 Comments

Long time no blog...
Hols are here... actually 1/3 gone and i havnt gone much..
Moved into the tower block for a while now and made a few friends and starting to settle down into my new room..
I need things to do!!! getting really really bored out...
need to spend quality time with the right company i guess=)
Fam med totally screwed up my clinical skills and drained out whatever little bit of medical knowledge i have.. looks like i gotta start mugging all over again..
But problem!! --> cant focus on reading.. muz be stupid me trying to learn speed reading and hence ended up not being to read at all.. screwed up..

just tot of something my frens once mentioned:
"Why do guys call each other 'you bitch' in such a loving manner but you dun here girls calling each other otherwise....".. hmmm

Granado espada.. please work man...

posted by xiaoke @ 12:52 PM 1 Comments

So many things to post.. so little time haa

1)One thing i learnt from my sunday school teaching about sin.. Qing tuan were talking abt it so it just reminded me to put it down: definition of sin from the thesaurus

Main Entry: sin
Part of Speech: noun
Definition: immorality
Synonyms:
anger, covetousness, crime, damnation, debt, deficiency, demerit, disobedience, envy, error, evil, evil-doing, fault, gluttony, guilt, immorality, , iniquity, lust, misdeed, offense, peccability, peccadillo, peccancy, pride, shortcoming, sinfulness, sloth, tort, transgression, trespass, ungodliness, unrighteousness, veniality, vice, violation, wickedness, wrong, wrongdoing, wrongness, imperfection!!!

haa imperfection , we are all sinners.. cant deny it now.. we all need God to cleanse sin then!! So the bible is right!!

2) Radiology is over.. sucks.. most shadowy place on earth and the place really drive u to sleep... din learn much yet i know its so important.. gosh... must really try to learn more as i go on ba.. family medicine coming up.. another slack posting... mayb i should spent more time now revising ba.. sighz... and of cos building on my relationships gosh...

3) i cut my hair... long hair doesnt suit me la.. short hair more cool!!

4) Took some photos with Wenyang camera haa

5) Sunday school summary tomolo( i mean tis morning) plus reading verse plus ushering... crammed up morning..

6) my secret training starts now haa... aim number 1!! destroy the protectors on the basketball court pillars!!

7) Made my mother's day gift!!

8) finally last thing : to do or not to do............. sighz

posted by xiaoke @ 1:30 AM 0 Comments

突破的生命

主啊，曾几何时诗歌已不再动听，
诗词也不再动心？我才发现我已与你远离。
我的心，灵，诚实，你去了哪里？
口口声声的说我爱你，
所行的路又为何相反？

黑暗幽谷中我看到了希望，
主的光正在照耀，永不动摇。
神的怜悯与宽恕，我不配，
但他却仍旧永不改变。

主啊，求你赐我有突破的生命
不再被罪恶挟制捆绑，
求你使我被你的灵沐浴，
生命中有你的爱流露。
天天步行光明之中，
永远不动摇。

posted by xiaoke @ 11:28 PM 0 Comments

What i do at 4 am ... haa

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

posted by xiaoke @ 4:27 AM 0 Comments

2 weeks of emed has gone and i feel that i still have so much to learn and do...
Lets see
1 female cather,
2 male cather, ABG
3 toilet and suture
ECGs and plugs and bloods countless...
I still feel so insecure, that each plug i set i wont go in... no flash back... and the pt grimace..
So many sleepless nights cos i had to sleep in the morning
yet emed is so fun... most enjoyable posting yet besides surgery...
Liked the ambience and the pace is just good... not too slack that leaves you stoning or too rush to leave you panting...

But i feel that this has been a posting where i left everything and everyone behind... friends, family, dota=(...
Gotta catch up with all of them before i become a lifeless person who will remind so for the rest of my life haa

To all my friends having exams all the best and to those gg to have attachments and postings too... have fun and enjoy what you do=)

posted by xiaoke @ 7:56 PM 0 Comments

In the middle of the night.. i just had a surge of emotion..
Where would i be without God?
Would i be where i am? would i be who i am?
WOuld i even be alive? I really dun know..
I guess i have faced death quite a few times in my life and if not for God, i wil be overwhelmed with the fear of it.
Death is of no fear to me now because to me it is now no an end but a new beginning.. Knowing that God has already overcome it gives me comfort to know that every step of my life is planned.. even life after death.. How much i wan to share this comfort with those i love and care abt... =) (yes its you.. i wan to share it with u=) )

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<<新的开始>>
那天，夜里，泪水中，
我忽然想起了你。
无奈又翻开了以往的相片，
看着你我以前有多甜蜜。
傻傻的，
望着手机上你的简讯，
就是舍不得把你忘记。
是不能忘记，还是不敢忘记?
我自己也不太清楚.. .

暗暗，窗外，下雨了，
泪和雨的滴答声，
融成了优柔的旋律。
既然已做了决定，
就不要后悔，
何必再伤上加伤，泪上加泪，
为不值得的事去悲伤？

是时候有新的开始，新的希望，
新的梦想将要起航。
这时发现生命依然，
未来依然，爱也依然，
正等待我去拥抱。
雨不觉中也停了，
弯月映影着我心中的微笑。

posted by xiaoke @ 11:43 AM 0 Comments

Next week's easter... was inspired by the pastor's prayer.. so i wrote this.. "Way to glory"


Way to Glory

On His way to Calvary,
Bearing the ladened cross for our sins,
The women weeping bitterly,
For their Lord, Saviour and King.

Chorus
Way to Glory, Way to Glory,
Our sins, the Lord, His blood has cleansed.
Nailed pierced Saviour, bleeding He said,
"Forgive them Father, they know not what they do."

When the darkest hour came,
The temple curtain was torn in two.
Man and God has reconcilled,
Because of Jesus, sinner's plan.

Chorus
Way to Glory, Way to Glory,
Our sins, the Lord, His blood has cleansed.
Nailed pierced Saviour, bleeding He said,
"Forgive them Father, they know not what they do."

Then, arising from His grave,
Bursting onto Glory, to come again.
Death, our life, reigns no more,
Because of our Jesus, Saviour King.

Chorus
Way to Glory, Way to Glory,
Our sins, the Lord, His blood has cleansed.
Nailed pierced Saviour, bleeding He said,
"Forgive them Father, they know not what they do."

posted by xiaoke @ 7:27 PM 0 Comments

A black flurry rushed across the floor of the psychiatric ward in nuh and we all tot we were hallucinating...
Then e rascal peeked out its head n headed to the room at the end...
It jumped from room to room trying to get out of e dreaded place...
Finally with a box and a blanket and a hysterical nurse behind us the brave heros wenz and xk caught it and released it into the wilderness of kent ridge wing where it lived to tell the story of how he mistook e psyhiatric ward for the vet's...

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Maze... bang... another dead end... where is the right route man? am i lost?

Life is just like that, when i am so focused on walking walking walking..., it seems so hard and difficult path... oopps another obstacle to overcome...

but when i think of it and see it from a bird's eye view, with the maker of the maze telling me the exact path... the maze seems so easy and instead of the nooks and crannies, it appears like a straight path.

From tat, i drew comfort to know that because God is the planner of my life... there is always a path that he already has in mind... i just need to trust...

Had there been any problems in life, struggles or what not, i believe that these are to make us into the person that we are to be. When we look at things from a bird eyes view, every little thing that we go through do not occur by chance but is part of the grand plan to mould and build us. It says that suffering produces perseverance, perseverance character and character hope... If we do not look at the end point, we can not see the hope that God has given us...

At the end of all these, when we focus on what God has done for us, how he has sent his only son to be born in a manger, to die on the cross, the symbol of suffering and pain, we can understand why we have to be humble and submit to him-- because Jesus had taught us humility when God became Human and the perfect Man died for sinners.

posted by xiaoke @ 4:54 PM 0 Comments

I love CHP... photos from cofm project

posted by xiaoke @ 2:48 PM 1 Comments

I realised that i am beginning to lose the passion i had for god since i was in jc. I used to be able to give up races that i could win in jc just because it fell on a sunday. Now i couldnt even leave a bit more time for god... so busy with myself. Is it because of the work load, is it because of environmental changes and a need for survival?

Just hope that i wil be able to willing to let god use me and have a life that is pleasing to him..

posted by xiaoke @ 2:46 PM 0 Comments

Many things happeng..juz hope i can catch hold of everything and live through each day w god's grace.
Exams coming... 1month time isnt a lot... juzt hope that i can realy sit down and study and not squander away al my time.
sighz...

posted by xiaoke @ 5:37 PM 0 Comments

1 week to finish:
1) 1 write up
2) 1 ward assessment and clerk at least 3 patients thoroughly
3) 1 clinical test, history taking with the examiner watching you...
4) 3 freaking hours paeds paper with 20 mcq and 8 essays... !@#$!@

!@$!@ why never announce earlier??

posted by xiaoke @ 5:31 PM 0 Comments

主是我力量我力量，主是患难中力量；
主是我幫助我幫助，主是隨时幫助。
主是避难所我避难所，主是坚固避难所；
主是我力量我力量，惟主是避难所。
大地虽會改变，高山虽會动摇，
大海翻腾大浪颤抖但我们卻不害怕，
喂哦，喂哦，喂哦，喂哦......

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O give Him all your tears and sadness, give him all your years of pain....

posted by xiaoke @ 9:37 AM 0 Comments

Once again i am in the OT waiting for the op. Getting sick of the day of night call is not fun... poundin headache... blocked nose.. man... but compared to the kid thats going in later... BKA for crushing feet and ankle injury after being run over by a lorry... man.. e relatives were real horrified... imagine that BKA at such a young age... but tats the best solution now... and hpe he will get a better life soon....
Saw melody in the paeds wards too... came in for op to striaghten her spine... her scoliosis must have being wuite bad to warrant an op.. anyway shes taller nower and tats good=) and shes quite happy=)

posted by xiaoke @ 11:22 PM 0 Comments